confused
I don't know why when everything goes smooth...my mind just fucks it up is it because that I am not deserving of anything?is it because I don't feel good enough about myself..why..when I was young I had fear of missing out on things so I went and corrected myself I just..you know whenever I feel like doing anything they never pick my calls or when one of them does they are busy.. I tried to make myself understand that I can't control them I can't do shit.. remember when you are feeling low and you want someone to kind of be with you but you can't just call someone up cause you know what their response is gonna be like.. believe me when ever I see someone doing so much I know they don't wanna be invested in me.. like I don't know why I feel like I don't have anyone..when did it all start I kept doing things.. I Guess the fear that people will not like me I would want to change myself more..no don't get me wrong I have friends really good friends but n...